My Response

After some deep soul searching last night and this morning, I have a response to my last blog. It's really quite simple and I am a little pissed at myself for not realizing it earlier. Fuck that light at the end of the tunnel. The truth I am seeking is buried deep inside of me. I just have to find it. Looking for the light at the end of tunnel and forgetting the here and now is complete bullshit. All the feelings I have been experiencing the last few days are just that, feelings. They come and go and yet here I am still strong as ever and ready to take on everything this illusion we call life has to throw at me. Who is gonna make a fucking difference? I am. Who is gonna go out and get what I want? I am. Who is gonna take the weight of the world and throw it aside? I am. Fuck all this negativity that I have allowed myself to get wrapped up in. Fuck the pain. Fuck the suffering. Fuck the unhappiness. Fuck the sorrow. Fuck the longing for what I can't have. Fuck the anger and desperation. Fuck me. As I walk through the valley in the shadow of death, I fear no evil. Do you know why? Because I am the baddest motherfucker in the valley and nothing is gonna stop me from being me and enjoying my life. So, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool. Peace I am out of here. Seriously though, I got nothing but love for everyone whether they want it or not. I am through fucking around and my peace is mine and mine to share with the universe. Thanks to my friends, new and old, past and present, loved and unloved. FUCK!

 

 

Shing 03/2009